You say you understand
The feeling of feeling nothing
Dear friend, I know you do
I know you've felt this before
Every time I leave flowers at your door
The emptiness behind the wooden frame
It's all empty, it’s all the same
In this line, the flowers are used as a metaphor for the love given, and the wooden frame (the door) being a symbol for those feelings being left unrequited.
Your eyes glare back at me
An emptiness matched only by myself
Why are we here?
Why are we broken?
Like a bone that's healed crooked
So level me along the dirt
Sink me down and let me drown
In a grave that's made out of my mind
I always knew I would be left behind
I have written my eulogy
Parade my body in the isle
Of an empty church
Remember me
For who I was
Not for who I was made to be
With lack of dopamine
With lack of dopamine
Struggling with depression, you often involuntarily become someone else, or a different version of yourself. This line is asking whoever it may concern to remember me as the person I truly am, without the chemical imbalance, not the person I am when these chemicals are missing.
Who I was made to be
With lack of dopamine
You said you understood
But the feeling of feeling nothing
Persevered as we both shook
Oh my god, this can't be real
This isn't really happening
Now I know you've felt this before
You feel it now as the flowers rot at your door
The emptiness behind the wooden frame
It's always empty
It's always the same
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The lyrics for Dopamine are about loss of love, more specifically about the involuntary loss of love through depression. The love could be both romantic and platonic, depression has no mercy. Feeling emotionally numb but knowing that you truly do feel something deep down is a feeling I struggle with so often, that’s why I wrote these words.